I feel like I've really been running myself ragged the past couple of weeks and I was really looking forward to catching my breath this week, but it doesn't look like that will be happening. I'm leaving Tuesday evening for Des Moines for my cousin's funeral which will be on Wednesday morning. My cousin, Tad, hung himself on Saturday.
When major stuff happens, my emotions tend to go into shock for awhile and I think that's happening to me now.
I also found out I'll be preaching at the funeral. I've never even done a funeral period, let alone one like this. I found out during Sunday morning's set-up and when I shared with the crew that I'd be doing the funeral for my cousin who committed suicide, one guy responded, "oh, those are the easy ones!" I almost fell over laughing, the comic relief helped soothe the tension I was feeling.
But I know that preaching is a gift God has given me and as much as I'm not looking forward to seeing the pain on everyone's faces, I am glad to be able to serve my family in this way.